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 Have you ever had the experience where, when it came time to pray, you found yourself dragging your feet? Distractions in prayer are common, but have you ever gone through those times when you actually welcome distractions so as to avoid Jesus?

Those times when we are tempted to avoid the Lord seem to come up most often after we have sinned, especially after we have sinned more than usual. At such times, we may be ashamed and reluctant to go to Jesus. We may be afraid that He will be angry with us.We may be too full of pride to humble ourselves and look at what we have done. Thus when we are weighed down by sin, we would rather be distracted than face the Lord in prayer.Our own darkness can be a major obstacle that prevents us from going to the Lord. St Teresa reminds us that we should find the courage to go to the Lord when we feel the weight of our weaknesses, sinfulness and attachments.

It may happen that we do not go to the Lord because we have attachments and are afraid He will make us get rid of them. For instance, we may still be clinging to our coveted doughnuts. If the Lord sees us doing this, and he says," Come to me." One might reply," Lord, I am so attached to this or that ."

Jesus simply wants us to go to him.The attitude of going to the Lord as we are is a suprisingly effective way to console Jesus and progress in holiness.

Go to Jesus as you are. Open your heart to Him as it is.And know that Jesus loves sincerity , that He loves it when we are completely open with Him. The more open we are with Him, the more deeply He can heal us. This especially applies to his being able to heal us of our attachments. 

Remember that He knows we are little. He knows we are not big enough to climb the rough stairway of perfection. 

The steps He will ask us to take toward holiness will be steps that are appropriate to little soul---- " little steps". Such little steps have brought us much farther and higher than we ever expected to climb. 

One of the ways the Lord makes our progress relatively easy is by beginning to detach our hearts from something well before he asks it of us. One day, there is something we thought we could never live without, something that , on a bad day, we would be terrified even to mention to Him, because we would be afraid He would tell us to let go of it. Then, the next day, the day on which he asks us to give it over to Him, we find that we hardly want it anymore. This is one of God's great mercies to little souls who trust Him. He gently and impercetively changes their desires . In case we have not already given Him this degree of power over our lives, let us give it to Him now:

Jesus, behold, I give you my heart. If my desires are not in harmony with yours, then please change them according to your wisdom and love. Dear Jesus, you know that by myself, I am too weak to change my desires, but you can do it. Jesus, I trust you to do it. Jesus , I thank you in advance for doing it.

So if it happens that there is some deep attachment we really must get rid of now, we begin to hear the Lord beckoning," Come to me"